Monday, March 4, 2024

The end

Days 20 and 21 got lost in the blur, but I assure you there was plenty of eating and cheating. I don't regret this attempt at a fast. I always learn something when I fast. I'm not good at extended fasts. This is not the inspiring journey I was hoping to take you on, but know that God is always faithful, even when I am not. Blessings to you, my six readers.  😊💗

Friday, March 1, 2024

The Fast(ish) - Day 19

I didn't eat for 30 hours, and it was hard. I broke the fast with oatmeal just now because I have to go to work soon. That opened the floodgates to the cookie dough that I've been eyeing in the fridge for 19 days.  I bought it the day before the fast started, which was not a good idea, but it was marked way down at Costco. I ate a whole lot of it the day I bought it, and it's been tempting me ever since. Today, it won. Fortunately, my stomach has shrunk enough over the last couple weeks that I couldn't eat the whole tub of it. 

Thursday, February 29, 2024

The Fast - Day 18

Thursday, February 29, 2024

4:00 and I haven't eaten anything. God has given me lots of visions, and a verse that helped me. "So live the rest of your earthly life no longer concerned with human desires but consumed with what brings pleasure to God." - 1 Peter 4:2

Fail - Day 17

Wednesday,  February 28, 2204

I was determined not to eat today. Made it all day and had a plan for the tempting evening time. But then I went to church to lead worship for the ladies, and one of them had brought in chili, crackers, fudge, and apple crack, and before I even knew it, it was all in my mouth. What is wrong with me? I had literally minutes before that talked with my pastor about this very thing. I was lamenting the fact that the flow of the Holy Spirit dries up when I fail. He said it's my feeling of disappointment in myself that stops the flow. Trying again tomorrow.

Wednesday, February 28, 2024

How NOT to fast - Day 16

Tuesday, February 27, 2204

Readjusted my own rules to make me feel better.  Fasted all day except during my Costco shift, during which I pigged out. I do have more intense encounters with the Lord when I fast. I just need to discipline myself to do it.


Monday, February 26, 2024

Everything's a Saltine - Day 15

 Monday, February 26, 2024

I was going to not eat anything today, but.... That's how most of the posts start anymore, isn't it?

I’ve lost 2.6 pounds. Should have been five times more than that if I’d done it right, but loss is better than gain or even staying the same, so I’m trying to count it as a victory. Feeling pretty failurey though. Not sure I’ll be able to crawl back up on the wagon for the next week. 

Anyway, I was going to fast today, but then I looked out the window and saw the garlic chives coming up in my garden already.  If they're going to make the effort to debut in February, it's my duty to eat them. 

So I thought, how can I make something that I can justify in my mind as a saltine? I stirred the chives up with some flour (I had planned to use oats but forgot), garlic salt, onion, garlic, and water, poured it into a pan in a thin layer and cooked it. Mike was a big fan. While it was cooking, I was dreaming up a name for it. Vegetable saltine? Evil funnel cake? Savory crepe? Mike came up with the winner: manna. Then he thanked God for it. 

I ate this one while it was still a little pale because I couldn't wait. 



The "Fast" - Day 14

Sunday, February 25, 2024

My plan was to fast all food today but I ended up making oatmeal with raisins. Need strength for tonight. Leading worship by myself again.

I was doing well. The leader said to meet him at break time if we wanted to discuss the planning of the healing rooms. Break time is usually snack time, so I went to the planning meeting instead. But the leader is also a professional chef, and he brought pasta salad. I didn’t even try to resist. Two big plates of it. That opened the floodgates so I also finished off a bag of honey mustard pretzels. I had just been explaining my pasta rationale to my friend Eric, saying it’s basically a saltine.He saw the pretzels on my plate and said, “Those are basically flavored saltines.” I wanted the M&M’s too, but I couldn’t convince myself that they were basically colored, round saltines, so I didn’t.